great quote
"As soon as you're born you start dying, so you might as well have a good time." -- Cake
That is of course from their Sheep Go To Heaven song. I've heard it a few hundred times and always liked that line. I think I'll update my email signature to that.
venting and you
There are a ton of people reading this thing.
I didn't quite realize the sheer number until I went through my web logs last night.
Well guys, I know who most of you are, and I've been holding back about things I thought would offend you. I'm done with that. This is meant to be my personal soap box, and I haven't been using it as such. I will curse, rant, rave, and insult the world if I see fit from now on. I will probably offend you all at one point or another. If you can't get over that, I suggest you all stop reading now. You all have a place where you let it out. For some of you it's a spouse, some it's a best friend on the phone, and even others your office buddies. Some of you hold it in and are miserable, and others let it out all the time and act like an ass to everyone. Mine is here. Deal with it.
That being said, I'm in a really fucking pissy mood today. Everything went wrong yesterday. I couldn't wake up and was really late for work. I work flexible hours and my boss lives in another state so this isn't a big deal, but it makes me feel like I'm not being responsible and starts the day off poorly. Next I could *not* focus at work. I know I got some work done yesterday, but nothing I needed to be doing. I have had a serious issue with this lately. When I say lately I mean for a few years now. I get my work done, but not anywhere near the amount I'm capable of doing. I need something to motivate me, and I'm not sure what that is. Next, despite being late, I met my old boss Scott for a drink at 5pm. I had every intention of returning to work, so I left my laptop there. We caught up for an hour, and he went back to work while I went home. I had intended on riding my bike, but after a drink, and the fact I wouldn't be getting out until 20mins before sunset I just couldn't motivate myself. So what did I do? Instead of returning to work like a responsible employee, I went to the grocery store, made dinner, ate too much food, and then had two drinks by myself.
What an incredible waste of an evening.
So then, feeling the alcohol, I talk to Lori on the phone. We had a really dysfunctional argument (if you can call it that). I won't get into the finer points, but let's just say I have a bad habit of clarifying things when I think people misunderstood me or I think they jumped to a conclusion and didn't hear what I said. So when someone replies to something I said with "so you're saying X" and I meant Y, not X, I will explain Y again instead of leaving it alone and moving on. I'm not even sure we were disagreeing on anything. It was just silly. Under normal circumstances I would have moved on after about 30 seconds, so I'm not bothered by it today, but I'm sure she is. Ugh. Awesome ending to a shitty day.
So there it was midnight, and I have an 8am meeting, so there is no way I'm going to sleep well, get up, get ready, and get to work by 8am. So now I'm working from home today without my work laptop. I can access most everything without it, but it still angers me when I'm irresponsible like that. Thankfully I'm actually getting things done today (other than the conference call I'm half listening to right now, which, like many conference calls is a waste of time).
Tonight should be a better night. I am going to get in a quick bike ride, then Lori and I are going to make dinner and watch the season premier of "The O.C." Yes folks, I watch the epitome of teeny bopper soap operas. Even after ranting about how I've been great at not watching too much TV lately, I still do have a few things I'm hooked on. Interestingly enough, the last couple days apart is the longest that Lori and I have spent apart in a few weeks. I'm definitely looking forward to seeing her tonight. Assuming she still wants to? =)